What Is This Fear… Seriously

It’s 2:38 am January 1st as I Write this…

Happy New Year and all that ay.

Just reflecting back on my past year and observing my biggest flaws of the year… Procrastination and Fear…

Fear of rejection more specifically – which leads to procrastination and then I get stuck in this f*cked up roundabout with no exits going back and forth with procrastinating on what I have to do and then start building this Fear of rejection or whatever else lies beyond the realms of the Unknown…

So as I’m sat in my room on New Years eve listening to my neighbours have some fucked up Kariokie party…

I say Kariokie what I meant was a bunch of souls trying to escape their bodies via there voicebox…

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Amor Fati

Funny story about today..
I got up really early to drive 45miles to get to a shift ive been rostered in for ages.. I get there and theres another lad there..

He was was also rosterd in.. however i had been taken off without any email or anyone telling me so another 45miles back..

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Change Requires Challenge..

From Instagram – @roy_eastham
‘Why you here, Why you inflicting this pain upon yourself, You could of gone home straight home, Your tired, You don’t need to be here’ – My base level self going to the gym straight after the 11th nights work in a row..
You ever have those workouts where you wonder why your here.. When everyone else is in bed, or sat in Starbucks before work and your putting your self through self inflicted physical pain..

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Vires Acquirit Eundo

You once couldn’t stand on your own two feet, You couldn’t walk, You fell, You crawled, You fell again, You cried and fell some more.. But you can Walk now.
You once couldn’t ride a bike, you had stabilizers on and still fell, You took them off and fell again, you cried and fell some more.. But you can ride a bike now.
You once couldnt read or wright, Or Drive or Swim..
But you can do all those now.

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